blackthelion▼

blackthelion: when im happy im happy! I think it's hard for loved ones to understand that they cant make me snap out of it just because they are able to make me smile or laugh!it's not about being in a bad mood...moodiness is just another symptom.It feels like a small drizzle that grew into a hurricane. ALL i can do without being medicated is try to pass safely through it until it suppresses again. I write about it because i know im not the only one. someone else understands. someone else know what this can feel like. the loneliness in a crowded room feeling.Close to everyone and yet distant at the same time! My eyes refuse to cry storms! Im tired physically but mostly mentally...it feels like my brain is on fire sometimes,usually right before some great ephipany or philosophical thoughts about being a better human being! Whatever for now!